Next Stage of Book - Reflections on the day
Today I cannot bear to write anything except for the reflections on the day. I had a very nice meeting with a writing coach, who helped me with my notes. It was my first time meeting with somebody about my notes from the book, compiled two weeks ago, in the blog post in which I announced having completed a stage. Then there was sickness, work, wakefulness, recovery, barely, ah!
And then the political landscape today has a heaviness, with foreign affairs. I cannot blogpost without doing these reflections, I do not give myself much outlet to do these reflections. So using the blogpost as reflection - such is the day today.
I suppose I can reflect on this meeting I had, and the next stage of what I am doing. My book will schism into two books. The topics are distinct enough from each other. I spent some time thinking about this last night, and the writing coach agrees.
Book 1 is about the colors of intimacy
Book 2 is about how monogamy and polyamory are pretty similar
There is a Book 0, that is mostly already written, about the sexual cold war
Three books, none complete! It saddens me. As my body feels weak and withered, I do want to finish these books as part of my own “Swedish Death Cleaning.” The point of converting them from something like notes to something like a solid shareable object is so that it is shareable.
One potential “hack” I can do is to currently share them, see what is “broken in the sharing” or “missing in the sharing process” and work backwards from that. For example if there is no title page, no author, entire missing sections, an entire missing ending. Stuff like this. And then just fill in what is missing to the best of my ability.
Currently I have 5 projects, that are kind of like this. 3 of them can probably be finished this way, when I think about it. Finishing them will give me the mental space to do the other 2.
I actually really like this idea.
I will ask to meet with a coaching friend about it, so that we could do it together.
I do not care for the books to be “perfect” as much as I care for them to be “done.” There is something funny around wanting them to “make sense” though as an actually coherent piece of communication. They were all started like this - as something I wanted to communicate.
I will have to go through each one, one at a time. Set a week for each, something like this, and finish it. Or work on it, to get it farther ahead than it was before.
Usually I would be inspired and pour more into the document. I guess I just need to do more of that. And continue to debug the process.
This blog looked pretty dumb for a while. Then one night I made it green. I think it will have to happen like that, just 3-10 hour sessions in which I do the work, with that solid eye towards finishing.